What Remains?
Good Morning Fellow Travelers,
Greetings on the path.
Most of us devote our lives building a bulwark of identity—our career, our relationships, our public roles, and then exhaust ourselves trying to defend it. I certainly did. For the first 18 years of my adult life I was in the world of organic farming, and I built, along with those around me, a world of beauty and structure.
I remember a moment when the curtain lifted just a crack when I read, in the midst of the second year at the farm (a year of profound building and growing the business), a passage from Pema Chodron that said ‘abandon all hope of fruition’. I looked around and was utterly struck with the fact that I was surrounded by the hope of fruition. I didn’t understand the full import then, but I knew in my bones I had read a big Truth.
Then, a few years later, through a public and difficult divorce, I lost much of the bulwark of identity I had gathered around me—the land, the reputation, home, and career. I was forced into a near total pruning of my life. I remember thinking, ‘ok, what has remained is my children, my car, and about half a year's money in the bank.’ It was in that groundlessness, beget by the loss of most of my external resources, that I began to sense that which does not move.
The loss of those external structures that propelled me, quite unceremoniously, to build the internal architecture I now inhabit—the uncreated quiet that cannot be destroyed. While I often lose the immediate access to this unassailable inner resource, there is something in me that knows, with a capital K, that the immense silence is there. That knowing cannot be taken away from me, nor ultimately from anyone.
When life breaks open, we are faced with a sobering question: who is left when the career, the marriage, or the social position is gone? Or in my case all three?
If you find yourself asking that today, know that the Deep Being waiting underneath the noise is more solid than any edifice of title, identity, or role. There is a deep well-being, stillness, and enormous creative potential that remains when the things of the material world fall away.
When a person is able to ease into a regulated nervous system and move into deep stillness, the Adult Presence is finally able to be with the confusion and wounding that has, until now, created a life that often reflects the aspects of unhealed unconscious material. From this stable center, transformation isn’t just a change of thought, but a relocation of your entire existence from, in Eckhart Tolle’s teachings, the world of form to the world of being.
For the last 10 years, I have gathered 3,500+ hours of one-on-one clinical work in my private practice. I moved from growing food for the body to cultivating the human nervous system. The seasons of the soul cannot be rushed any sooner than the seasons of the earth, but with sincerity and time you can learn to inhabit a deep, embodied power.
I offer clients my own stabilized nervous system as a co-regulator, as well an ability to point people to their own eternal nature as we embark on an Embodied Journey into the Facets of Being. This is a practical, biological process of co-regulation; we are building a resilient, grounded core that knows, in the very cells and neuropathways, how to ease back into its own center and meet our inner confused parts with gentle patience and understanding.
The majority of my clients stay with me for the better part of a decade. This level of sustained, weekly commitment is statistically very rare in the healing field; it is a testament to the attuned, safe, and generative container I co-create with clients that slowly, and at the pace of safety, yields ever unfolding transformation over the years and spans different stages of their lives.
We are building an Adult Presence that is resilient by cultivating a nervous system that can remain ok regardless of the weather outside. I have navigated, in myself and in work with clients, many variations of the human psychic terrain, and can thus recognize the "stuck" places in the interior as if reading a map. We are cultivating an inner capacity of Adult Presence that can choose to regulate rather than react. This is the basis of emotional maturity and the prerequisite for all abiding personal and spiritual growth.
I have two Sovereign spaces available for new clients to begin this March. This is not a call to a "quick fix" or a temporary spiritual experience; we are doing the slow, respectful work of building a presence that can hold immense peace and wounding simultaneously.
This is a substantive journey that asks for a corresponding commitment of time and resource. Unlike the things of the material world that can be given or taken, the capacity to inhabit the Adult Presence is an investment in your own being—a resource that stays with you forever. If you feel called to this slow, respectful building, I offer several ways to begin this work:
Growing an Adult Presence:
An Embodied Journey to the Facets of Being.
11-Session Package: $220 per session
20-Session Package: $210 per session
30-Session Package: $200 per session
The journey begins with a Foundational Session ($185). We sit together in the quiet, move into somatic grounding and discover your unique map of radiant stillness, silence, and well-being. Reply to this message or sign up for the Foundational Session if you feel a ‘yes’ in your body and bones. - link in the first comment.
Respectfully,
Evangeline
P.S. Many of my clients have walked this path with me for nearly a decade. We aren’t looking for a revolving door of "fixes," but a lifelong relocation into Being. This work is an investment in the one thing that no divorce, career change, or market shift can ever take away: your own unshakable center.
