Good Morning Fellow Travelers of Earth,
Last week I sat on the porch under the silent soaring moon. I had just finished a walk up the big hill out behind my house, the moonrise vast and terrible in its beauty, when a belief reared its familiar visage, Hydra heads and tentacles undulating, inviting me to look again at its intricate form.
This familiar, lived-long-by-my-side belief is thus..."There are things I actually really have to figure out. "
Right!? I mean...right!!?? Part of me screams 'of COURSE there are things I really actually have to figure out!!! It is sacrilegious to even entertain the possibility that this could be questioned! "
Is that true? There are things I actually really have to figure out?
No. The thick fabric of the night swelled up and around me and took me in as its own. Crickets, bullfrogs, the neighbors dogs, a thrumming fabric, rich and moving. I sat in that river of sound and life and began to drop into a deep immensely silent space beneath it.
And as I sat there I saw that this river of life is always coursing around us, beautiful, complete, intelligent, flowing above a stillness and silence immeasurably vast. Usually we pucker up and contract into ourselves by believing things like "There are things I actually really have to figure out." Do you feel that? Just writing the belief tightened me up, actually puckered me up from the root chakera to the crown, separating me, closing me down, making me sad and alone.
And that's question 3 of The Work - how I react and what happens when I believe "There are things I actually really have to figure out." I somehow suck myself energetically up and out of the living silence present everywhere. I'm suddenly tight, alone, separate. There is a sudden complete reliance on my mind, and it is frightening. I can feel the energy of thinking actually swirl up through my body and into my head. Everything around me is an object to be used. The entire vibrating night becomes something to be used by me for my survival, and my mind is caught in scanning and hunting for what best to use. A hard lonely world of objectification.
And then back to question 4 of The Work - what am I with out the thought There are things I actually really have to figure out?
I release all over my body. I feel myself weave into the backdrop of life. My eyes open and I see things with wonder, the hard calculating predator is gone from behind my eyes.
There are some beliefs that come back for you again and again, dancing you home. This is one of mine.
And....two upcoming events, the first completely FREE -
~Inquiry Circle Friday August 10th from 6:16 to 8:15p.m.. Please email me for directions . Let's delve into listening together ❤.
~ A Three Day Retreat at Light on the Hill, September 20th to 23rd. Detailshere. (Credit for Certification Candidates available.)