Good Evening Friends,
Last night I had the interesting experience of awakening with the same question over and over. I was not restless, in fact I was markedly peaceful, yet for some reason I awoke often, every hour or so. Each time, just as I began to move from sleep, the question "Who feels this?" was right there, as if someone else was asking it.
This three word question gently kissed my mind each time I was roused from sleep, there, unobtrusive, waiting for me.
The only thing that was different about last night was that as I fell asleep I asked Archangel Michael to clear away my internal blockages. Maybe this was his way? If it was, I like his style. Archangel Michael, I thank you.
The night's experience of natural inquiry inspired me to record a video delving into the question "who feels (believes, thinks) this?" It is surely one of those deceptively simple questions that can fillet deeply into the subconscious workings of the psych in one gossamer stroke.
The link to the video is here. Admittedly it is a bit long, and my cat meows a couple of times, and I had the irrepressible urge to wear fake eyelashes. If all of that does not stop you, have a look!
Take care of yourself, and until next time,
Good Afternoon Everyone,
Do you know that quiet quiet stillness deep inside of you? Do you sometimes sit and breathe and melt into a deep peace? It is the sweetest thing. The heart lives here in this quiet eternal flow underlying everything.
The heart presence is so soft, so gentle. It moves towards everything with love. Adyashanti speaks of how the MOST important thing in life is to be operating and living from the heart presence. He says if you're not there it is important to spend as much time as it takes, a minute, a day, an hour, a week, to get back into your heart. (Here is a link to Adya speaking about this - it's a great short video.)
Anything that is done from the thinking mind's view point alone will be calculating, manipulative, economic. The heart cannot do those things. The heart is simply incapable of calculating, manipulating, or acting for its own benefit. When you take the time to shift down into heart presence, tenderness, love, and grace will flow into everything that you do.
This question comes to mind:
"What would keep me form taking the time to move into heart presence? What would keep me from love, from operating from the heart and the heart only?"
Sit with that a bit and see what comes up. What keeps you from allowing yourself to over and over move back into the heart? This in an inquiry question.Treat it as such and listen in, tune your ear to the unknown, and have patience. The sincere question has an answer.
The first answer that arises in me is that heart presence will fail me. I won't survive in the world if I abide in the heart. My mind goes so far as to say that I will literally die if I allow my heart to lead the way.
What comes up for you? What would pull you out of living in the heart? Take note, you are learning great things with this question.
These thoughts, these beliefs that convince us to move out of the heart are beliefs to bring to the quiet contemplative balm of The Work.
Let's look at mine. If I live from my heart I will die.
Is that true?
Right away I see what would die if I lived solely from my heart. Manipulation of others would die. Trying to get ahead at the expense of, well, anything would die. My ego wouldn't make it. What else would die if I abided fully in my heart? The ability to obscure the way people see me would die. Eckhart Tolle calls it ego posturing. That would die.
How do I react when I believe that I will die if I live from my heart?
Who has that thought? Who in me believes that they will die if I live from the heart?
The Little One inside of me that is scared, that believes that it has to use everyone and everything to survive is the part of me that believes I will die if I live from my heart. I can see her, she is very young and frightened. She lives inside of me, she is the embodiment of the core terror of the belief.
Now I look at that terrified Little One. That frightened one. I just look at her, gaze at her such that I can finally really see her. (By the way, this looking, this gazing, is the act of looking through the heart presence. The heart has the capacity to see what is truly happening. What is real.)
With this heart looking, as I simply look at this Little One. I see her fear. I see her loneliness. Oh my heart breaks open. I see a scared little girl that is trying so hard, she has tried for so long, holding nothing back. I want to scoop her up and hold her.
Is it a good idea, does it seem like a wise decision to put that Little One in charge of my life? If I were to elect someone to guide my life, to direct me in all decisions, would I my power in that Little One? No, I would not, nor is it kind to her. She needs love, not a job.
However that is exactly what I give her when I live with the belief that if I truly abide in my heart I will die. Subconsciously I put that scared Little One in charge of my life. And the sweet Little One, in complete earnestness, throws her whole weight into doing the job I've given her. She gives it her all, she just don't have the tools or the wisdom to do it well. She does not have the capacity to do the job. I do though. My adult self has that capacity. My deep self knows how to guide my life. My deep self also knows how to hold and love this Little One.
Again, how do I react when I believe that I will die if I live from the heart? "How I react', or question #3 of The Work, actually happens to the Little One. When we believe a thought we are literally fused with the Little One. We put our Little Ones fully in charge, and experience our life through them. The locus of perception in my (her) body swoops up into my brain. I feel it go there, and a global fright or flight response grips through my world. I put all of my trust into my thinking mind and have to figure out how to survive in every second.
Who would I be without the thought that I will die if I live from the heart?
There's a settling down into something wise and old. (Do you see the Little One relax? Finally, an adult present.) There's a subtle leaning back into the moment. The almost imperceptible constant tilt forward out of Now relaxes backwards. The backwards step into Now. Feel it? That is where you can experience wonder. Wonder and love cannot be experienced when there is a constant tiny push forward out of Now into the next moment. You literally can't feel those things when your attention is compressed forward into the next moment. Our hearts abide Now. They cannot leave it.
When we live from the constant tiny push forward out of the Now and into the next moment we live a flat, bleak life. We live in our heads. We live with the Little Ones in charge.
I encourage you to try relaxing back into Now, relax back and allow your heart to open up and look around. What does it see? Take a minute, take a day.... take a lifetime. It's the reason we're here.
I also encourage you to really take note of the beliefs that keep you from residing in your heart presence. What would keep you from a devotion to Love? Who are the scared Little Ones inside of you? What do they believe is true?
My love to all of you. Next week I will send an email with some simple ways to shift into the heart center.
For now, bless you.